Another Loss!

I lost 1.6 this week for a whopping big total of 5.6 lbs for the month of January.  THAT SUCKS!!!!!

It is the worse weight loss I have ever had in a month trying to lose this weight.  I'm so frustrated! I'm sick of living in pain and really not living at all!  I can't get around anymore.  My knees, ankles and back are killing me all the time.  I need weight loss so I can start getting around easier.

I did move more this week, apparently not enough but I tried really hard.  I even did a short workout with my hand weights.  This weekend I have really had a lot of pain (more than normal)  I don't get this.  I'm grateful that I will see my Primary Care Physician on Wednesday.  I also get my Remicade on Tuesday and I'm hoping that it will help with the pain level.  We are suppose to have rain on Tuesday but I am going to get Mark to dig out my walker and we go walk what ever distance I can manage without putting myself to bed for days with pain.  I have to drive across town back to back days this week and I hope I can do it.  It is really hard getting in and out of my car with my worse knee!

Pray for me!

I can't quit!

I need a bigger weight loss each week!  I just want 10 lbs a month!

Finally!!!!

I lost 7.6 lbs this week!!!!!!

I'm so happy yet scared to death!  These last 3 weeks have been tough and now comes trusting that my body is ready to release this weight.  Makes me nervous and a bit scared.  I will continue doing what I have been doing and we will see.

One thing I have been doing is eating a lot of butter and avocado to get my points up.  I also have increased my protein.  Fruits and veggies isn't a problem.  I eat  to 2 pieces of fruit a day so I'm not over doing it!

A friend of mine who is a leader in another state contacted WW nutrition department and they agreed that I was eating healthy but they would watch the fats.  They recommended me meet with a nutritionist and I see my Weight Dr. Feb. 3 and I'll go over everything with her when I see her.  I have decided I'm going to quit fretting about hitting those points since I'm always 10-15 points below my target and just concentrate on good nutrition.  I know that the way I'm eating the Dr. has approved of and if my weight loss all of a sudden speeds up and WW doesn't like it I know she will give me the documentation that they will need.  I will continue to weigh. measure and track because as I go down the points and my requirements will change.  Eventually the program will work for me but 71 points is too many!

So...I do have a busy week this week.  Remicade, getting my hair done, meeting a friend for lunch and the maids are coming.  So  I will be moving more.

Let's get this week done!  I want to be successful!!!  Don't you?

Dang Computer!

I can't believe I haven't posted since Sunday!  Terrible!  It sure wasn't my intention but my power cord on my Surface Pro 3 died.  It wasn't even 2 years old!  Luckily Best Buy is covering it under my protection plan and it's on the way to me by the Pony Express!

Monday I saw my Rheumatologist and she is going to let me extend my Remicade treatments out to 6 weeks!  I am happy dancing!  I asked her if I could ever get off of this treatment.  I told her that I was learning a lot about gut health and I was trying not to eat foods that cause inflammation. She told me that she believed I could in time.  She told me about one of her patients that had crohn's so bad she was in the hospital getting blood transfusions.  They put her on Remicade and now she has been in remission and off Remicade for 4 years.  Oh I want to get there!

Tuesday I had lunch with Karen and actually did a little walking.  I proved to myself that I can walk further than I thought so I have been trying to walk more.  We'll see if it will cause this weight to move this week!

Yesterday I had to have a day of recovery because my right foot was giving me grief along with my back.  My back has not been the same since I had to stand in line for an hour and a half for tamales at Christmas!

Today I'm washing and cleaning some.  I do plan to work out with my hand weights today!

Stay good!

Haven't Felt Well

I know I haven't posted in a few days.  The last time I wrote I was drinking a gallon of water a day and on Friday I was so sick and miserable I really thought my body was going to explode.  I ended up taking a fluid pill and I'm telling you I lived in the bathroom!

I weighed Saturday morning and I was still retaining fluid so I knew I was going to have another gain and I did.  I gained 3.6 lbs.  I didn't let it bother me because I knew I was still holding water.

I did get my big rump out of the car on Saturday and shopped at Sprouts and I made it!  It flt good emotionally but boy did it hurt my body.  I will keep going and pushing myself!

Today we cooked some and I would have liked to gotten more done but Mark wasn't feeling well so it was an unusual day.  I'm tired and the week is just starting.  I see Dr. Perez in the morning and then Anna Tuesday.  Lunch with Karen on Tuesday and Lunch with Maya on Wednesday.  I'm going to have to be careful with my choices and with the sodium.  Wish me luck!

Till tomorrow!

Better Day!

Today has been a better day not a teary or depressed but I am feeling sad and confused as to why this body of mine is not losing weight.  Baffled BIG TIME!  My friend Doreen has been sending little quotes each morning and has been a big support.  Karen has been also.  You can't go this journey alone.  It's not fun.

I've gotten 7 bottles of water down thus far and I'm sure I will get the last one down this evening.  If I remember correctly when I did this with Banks about the 3 or 4th day my body purged it self and 13 lbs fell off.  I need that to turn these feelings around.

I also know I need to move and to exercise.  Today my doTerra order came and the UPS driver was kind enough to call me on my phone because our gate was shut.  That was so kind of him.  When I walked out to get it I got so winded I didn't think I was going to catch my breath.  I've got to start moving.  I need more energy!

Speaking of doTerra my up-line sent me a interesting article this afternoon.  The buzz is lemon water detoxes the liver, and will help with fluid retention, crank up the metabolism and a host of other things.  The bad side of drinking warm lemon water first thing in the morning is it is bad for your teeth.  It will eat the enamel off your teeth.  This article stated that lemon essential oil will do everything but will not damage your teeth because the lemon oil comes from the peels and they are not acidic but will give the same benefit. Interesting! I must also add that you need to make sure the essential oil is Certified Pure Therapeutic Grade, if it is not it isn't safe to ingest!

Here is the link if you are interested in reading:

http://www.davidwolfe.com/lemon-essential-oil-in-morning/

If you are interested in learning more about essential oils and how they support your health please contact me by leaving a comment below.

Please keep me in your thoughts and prayers.  This has to start working.  I don't want to die!  I want to live and I know I won't live long at 436.6 lbs.  Thanks!

What's Happening...

I know it has been a few days since I posted.  I had a great day yesterday.  I actually got some things done.  I felt good and Karen surprised me with a visit.  We went and split a lunch at Cheddar's and had a good time.  Mark cooked a delicious Salmon dinner with baked sweet potato and some early green peas.  I also had some 72% cacao.  Love that stuff.  You have to eat it slowly or it is very bitter. I only had a little flutter in my heart yesterday.  I really think the Ezekiel Bread is the culprit and now I'm scared to eat a whole grain bread!

Today I woke up feeling a little tired and I weighed and I shouldn't have.  Another week of no weight loss.  It sent me down the tubes.  I've fought tears all day long.  I haven't wanted to eat but I've made myself.  I'd like to get into bed and pull the covers over my head and cry like a baby.  WHAT IS WRONG WITH ME????????

As of 5 p.m. today I've downed 6 - 16.9 ounces of bottled water and I will get 2 more down to make it a gallon.  And yes I got on the scale this afternoon and yes it was up more and yes I just want to die!!!!! I DO NOT WANT TO WEIGH 436.6 LBS!!!!!

OH GOD HELP ME!!!!!!

Still Not Feeling Well...

Still having problems with gas in my body, lots of burping, periods of being lightheaded and some times I feel my heart skipping around but my heart rate is steady.  Go figure!  I will get in to see my cardiologist or my gastro or primary care this week.  I don't think it is my heart because this is happening between meals and when I eat I feel better.

I did have a gain of .4 in spite of me staying within my points.  Mark lost 4.6.  Maybe next week will show a loss.  I hope so.  I tried talking to my leader about Simply Filling but she was of no help.  I asked her how to figure out what foods in the store would fit Simply Filling Guidelines she couldn't answer me.  She told me most everything in the middle of the store would have to be counted.  I told her a friend who does Simply Filling told me Alpine Valley 12 Grain Bread is Simply Filling.  I don't know how it qualifies.  I really don't like my leader.  She must have an issue with me from the last time I attended WW.  My Mike ordeal screwed me more than I realize.  I may just need to find a leader who doesn't know me from Adam.  The thing is this location is closest to my home and she does all the Saturday meetings which is the day we want to attend.  I'll get it figured out or I'll quit and continue doing it on-line.  Maybe.

Well, here is to a new week hoping and praying I don't drop dead and we can figure out what's wrong and praying I will lose this week.

PLEASE KEEP PRAYING FOR ME!!!!!