I couldn't think of one for today. Nothing would come so it is what it is...
Today was weigh in day and I lost .2! After all that I have been eating, this is a blessing!
I did find 2 new recipes for the week. Both came from Skinny Taste. They are:
Crock Pot Picante Chicken and Black Bean Soup and Canned Tuna Ceviche that will be eaten in lettuce cups. Mark did the grocery shopping and I just got finished putting the soup on to cook during the night for lunch tomorrow. If the recipes are good I will post the recipes and/or links to the recipes.
Today we slept in till almost 10 and then remembered that we didn't have any eggs so we ended up with Breakfast Tacos for breakfast, Patty Melts and Fries for lunch and Pizza and brownies for dinner.
Can you spell S - I - C - K?
I am. I feel the filthy food in my body, I feel drugged, I feel awful! I truly feel like I'm on drugs!!!! I hate this and to think this is how we use to eat all the time! Everyday!
The party ends today! I just hope I can sleep tonight!
Before I close I have something to share. I have really been growing sick and tired of the same old selections of food. I really would rather go full Paleo but that will never clear with Michael. Today I posted the following:
I'm bored, bored, BORED with lunches! I need ideas! Very clean eating, no sugar, no bread (wheat), grains! HELP! Starting to feel like a puppet!
I got lots of suggestions. Some I can use and many I can't. But it was so sweet and precious to me that friends reached out to me.
Janet, my mentor posted this:
Food does not have the power to entertain or excite. Food is fuel for your body. Life is for entertaining, excitement, energy, and building relationships. When bored....go for a walk, volunteer at a charity, read a book to feed your soul, find a new hobby. If you give all that power to food, you give up control of your life, my dear.
Now she peeved me just a bit. It was not what my post was about. She seems to always read more into my words than what I'm saying. I responded:
Maybe bored wasn't the right word to use. Food doesn't have to excite me but for lunches we seem to eat the same thing over and over and over. Just looking for something new to try.
Then Michael posted. He is so powerful with words. Here is some food for thought:
Laura, remember this one thing , there's power in words. For example, “ I'm bored. Does anyone have any suggestions” ..how about saying “I'm so excited about the results I've seen so far! Can I ask any of you for some great suggestions for more clean eating recipes etc, etc” ...You are the result of the words you speak and the thoughts and actions you do. Love you! Be very carful of words you choose. Thoughts are only thoughts, but when you put words to your thoughts, like saying “I’m bored, bored, BORED” , only then will your life become boring. Your mind will believe what you say.
It won’t matter what anyone will suggest recipe wise, you’ll still be bored. Change your thoughts, change your actions, change your behavior. that's my recipe for your new eating program Love YOU!!! Now start loving You By the word you choose xoxoxoxo
Now I'm going to try and sleep. Thank you Lord for new days and another chance to do better!
Sunday, February 15, 2015
Saturday, February 14, 2015
Happy Valentine's Day!
Not much to report today!
Just spent the day hanging out with Mark watching TV, wrapping embroidery floss onto bobbins. Exciting huh?
29 years ago Mark proposed to me! Love the memories. Seems like yesterday!
Tonight Rae came over and we had Chipolte bowls and watched 3 movies.
How did you spend your day?
Tomorrow I have got to get things ready for the week! I have to! I'm out of control still. Pray I can draw the line in the sand. I feel gross...like a slug!
Just spent the day hanging out with Mark watching TV, wrapping embroidery floss onto bobbins. Exciting huh?
29 years ago Mark proposed to me! Love the memories. Seems like yesterday!
Tonight Rae came over and we had Chipolte bowls and watched 3 movies.
How did you spend your day?
Tomorrow I have got to get things ready for the week! I have to! I'm out of control still. Pray I can draw the line in the sand. I feel gross...like a slug!
Friday, February 13, 2015
Crazy Upsetting Day!
Talk about Friday 13th!
Distracted from what I said I was going to do. (work on menu and new recipes)
Spent too much time on Facebook with decisions regarding my next cross-stitch project.
Maids were suppose to come between 3 and 4. Changed to between 5 and 6 because the lady before me added extras. Then another call that it would be 7!!!!
Mark did not get a commission this month AGAIN! We can't go on like this!!! We can't make it on $2700 a month! Our mortgage is half that! My car is $469!!! Figure out the rest. I cried till I couldn't cry anymore.
I called Grover to cancel my gym membership. I can't afford it! Did he call me back? No! I'll have to call the bank and cancel the charge to my card! He better call me tomorrow! He knows we are struggling! This makes me mad!
I blew lunch. I spent a lot of time in the bathroom with a very sick stomach. I had a chocolate shake. I REALLY HATE DAIRY!!!
I blew dinner (mexican)
I ate brownie crisps.
Need I say more?
Yes, it was my decision and my decision only to blow it. Yes I paid for it in the worse way...SICK! I accept full responsibility for my actions. I alone will suffer and accept what I did when it comes to weigh-in day.
Tomorrow is a new day. Today is over. Tomorrow is a fresh new day and a full 24 hours to make good decisions and do what my body really likes and that is clean eating!
Going to bed!
Happy Valentine's Day!
Distracted from what I said I was going to do. (work on menu and new recipes)
Spent too much time on Facebook with decisions regarding my next cross-stitch project.
Maids were suppose to come between 3 and 4. Changed to between 5 and 6 because the lady before me added extras. Then another call that it would be 7!!!!
Mark did not get a commission this month AGAIN! We can't go on like this!!! We can't make it on $2700 a month! Our mortgage is half that! My car is $469!!! Figure out the rest. I cried till I couldn't cry anymore.
I called Grover to cancel my gym membership. I can't afford it! Did he call me back? No! I'll have to call the bank and cancel the charge to my card! He better call me tomorrow! He knows we are struggling! This makes me mad!
I blew lunch. I spent a lot of time in the bathroom with a very sick stomach. I had a chocolate shake. I REALLY HATE DAIRY!!!
I blew dinner (mexican)
I ate brownie crisps.
Need I say more?
Yes, it was my decision and my decision only to blow it. Yes I paid for it in the worse way...SICK! I accept full responsibility for my actions. I alone will suffer and accept what I did when it comes to weigh-in day.
Tomorrow is a new day. Today is over. Tomorrow is a fresh new day and a full 24 hours to make good decisions and do what my body really likes and that is clean eating!
Going to bed!
Happy Valentine's Day!
Thursday, February 12, 2015
Rough Day!
Today was the day to get the house in order for the maids and I decided to get my supplies to start another cross-stitch project with a group of ladies on Facebook.
Getting the house ready was easy peasy! Looking for the supplies wore me out. I thought it was all loss till the evening when I decided to look one more time and found it in a plastic envelope face down in a drawer in the media room closet!
When I thought it was all lost I called 3 Stitches and my friend the owner was rude to me and for the last freaking time. I've had it with her! I will never go in there again. I will be buying my supplies from a competitor a block away or on-line. She has lost so much business because of rudeness. She can't even get people to help with the shop because she is so gruff and rude! I'm really pissed off as I have been nothing but kind and helpful to her and the shop from the conception of it! Catering events, working in her home pricing things before it ever opened. She is a fabulous teacher but a horrible business owner. She cares more about rubbing elbows with the designers and suppliers than taking care of customers! Rant over!
I had a good breakfast today but I was so busy looking for the pattern that I ate a banana for lunch. I was so frustrated I almost got in the car and went and got a hamburger! I fought through it. Mark worked late so he brought home BBQ and while it is ok, the potatoes were not.
We move on!
Tomorrow is maid day. It will be a good time for me to menu plan for the week, prepare a grocery list and get prepared so that there will not be any miss-ups!
I promise I'll share it!
Getting the house ready was easy peasy! Looking for the supplies wore me out. I thought it was all loss till the evening when I decided to look one more time and found it in a plastic envelope face down in a drawer in the media room closet!
When I thought it was all lost I called 3 Stitches and my friend the owner was rude to me and for the last freaking time. I've had it with her! I will never go in there again. I will be buying my supplies from a competitor a block away or on-line. She has lost so much business because of rudeness. She can't even get people to help with the shop because she is so gruff and rude! I'm really pissed off as I have been nothing but kind and helpful to her and the shop from the conception of it! Catering events, working in her home pricing things before it ever opened. She is a fabulous teacher but a horrible business owner. She cares more about rubbing elbows with the designers and suppliers than taking care of customers! Rant over!
I had a good breakfast today but I was so busy looking for the pattern that I ate a banana for lunch. I was so frustrated I almost got in the car and went and got a hamburger! I fought through it. Mark worked late so he brought home BBQ and while it is ok, the potatoes were not.
We move on!
Tomorrow is maid day. It will be a good time for me to menu plan for the week, prepare a grocery list and get prepared so that there will not be any miss-ups!
I promise I'll share it!
Wednesday, February 11, 2015
I Made It!!!
I had a successful day and made it back to eating clean! Now to stay clean!
It wasn't easy! I had to stay busy so I cleaned house, washed clothes, put away laundry and I cross-stitched! It worked!
Now I just have to continue to fight through the cravings till all the sugar and chemicals are gone!!!!
I did spend some more time working on this medical/insurance mess. I was able to talk to some people that weren't puppets and are going to work on this nearly $5,000 hospital bill. It seems the bill was not submitted as a emergency. It was! Aetna is going to ask the hospital to resubmit it as an emergency. The billing department at the hospital is getting involved as well. Also the billing department is sending me a itemized bill and told me if there were charges left after Aetna pays correctly there may be some more discounts they can give me. I just want it to go away!
The employer mess is still a mess and my email was ignored today. That pissed me off! If this isn't fixed this week we are hiring an attorney because of the time restraint on getting the claim filed timely with the correct insurance. Dr.'s office is saying we will be responsible. I don't think so. They are or Baker-Nissan is! PERIOD!
Watched a dumb show tonight on TLC about a woman who hates fat people and went out to prove that losing weight is easy and fat people can lose their weight by eating less and moving more. I was boiling mad through the whole show. I was happy that by the end of her little challenge she did not reach her goal! Stupid Broad! Did any of you see this?
Wish me luck tomorrow! My eyes are slamming!
It wasn't easy! I had to stay busy so I cleaned house, washed clothes, put away laundry and I cross-stitched! It worked!
Now I just have to continue to fight through the cravings till all the sugar and chemicals are gone!!!!
I did spend some more time working on this medical/insurance mess. I was able to talk to some people that weren't puppets and are going to work on this nearly $5,000 hospital bill. It seems the bill was not submitted as a emergency. It was! Aetna is going to ask the hospital to resubmit it as an emergency. The billing department at the hospital is getting involved as well. Also the billing department is sending me a itemized bill and told me if there were charges left after Aetna pays correctly there may be some more discounts they can give me. I just want it to go away!
The employer mess is still a mess and my email was ignored today. That pissed me off! If this isn't fixed this week we are hiring an attorney because of the time restraint on getting the claim filed timely with the correct insurance. Dr.'s office is saying we will be responsible. I don't think so. They are or Baker-Nissan is! PERIOD!
Watched a dumb show tonight on TLC about a woman who hates fat people and went out to prove that losing weight is easy and fat people can lose their weight by eating less and moving more. I was boiling mad through the whole show. I was happy that by the end of her little challenge she did not reach her goal! Stupid Broad! Did any of you see this?
Wish me luck tomorrow! My eyes are slamming!
Tuesday, February 10, 2015
Catching Up!
This has been a crazy few days. I just couldn't write, then got busy and yesterday was Remicade and I couldn't keep my eyes open.
Let's start back at Sunday, weigh in day. I was up! I gained 3.6 lbs and knowing my body like I do there is some fluid retention involved. Eating out and processed foods contain lots of sodium and my body doesn't handle it.
I was still pretty upset on Sunday and still emotional over my conversation with Michael. I still feel the need to work on building my own support group. Not sure how to do this but I need to figure something out.
I started the day out back on track and made it through lunch and then fell off the wagon at dinner time. I hate the feelings and emotions that I'm going through.
Monday...
I saw the mail on the kitchen counter and found a letter from the hospital and a bill from a Dr. Apparently Aetna did not do what they told me they were going to and that was review the claims from last year's hospital stay and reprocess the claim. The hospital is looking for nearly $5,000. GAK. The Dr. bill is a balance for co-pays after filing with our old insurance company in 2013! When it rains it pours!
I spent the morning on the phone with Aetna and the Dr.'s office. I found out from the Dr.'s office that they could not refund the claim back because the insurance was still in effect! What? We terminated the Cobra coverage back in December 2013! Long story short Mark's ex-employer did not terminate him with the insurance company and have been paying for Cobra premiums!!!! OMG! Now the problem is getting this straightened out and getting these claims reversed before the 6 month time limit to file properly with Aetna! My head hurts. I have been on the phone a lot. My mood has been awful and food has been my emotional comforter. BAD!
I did meet a old cross-stitch friend for lunch on Monday and it was a great thing to see her and to get a way from the mayhem around here. I did not eat breakfast and while we ate at a Italian restaurant I ordered and grilled shrimp salad with fat-free italian dressing and only ate half of it. I was going to take the other half of the salad home but I left it there. I can tell you by suppertime I was hungry and cratered into a 3 piece KFC dinner with potato wedges and green beans. It made me sick. Too much grease! Oh my goodness, food really does play into how you feel. I'm back to no energy, my mood is down and I want to eat thinking that food will make me feel better. It won't! I know that! I need to get back to CLEAN EATING!
Went to bed sick!
Tuesday...(today)
I spent more time on the phone with the Dr. office before rushing to get ready to leave for my Remicade appointment. I was almost late. Too bad for me I didn't have time for breakfast so I grabbed a bottle of water and a banana and headed out the door.
When I get my Remicade they give me Zyrtec and Tylenol as premeds. Sometimes they give me the generic to Zyrtec and today it was the regular and that stuff knocks me out. It didn't take 30 minutes and my eyes rolled back into my head and I slept the whole time I was there.
I was starving when I got out so I ate my banana and drank my water before leaving the parking lot. It got me almost home before I pulled into Whataburger and got a Patty Melt, fries and a lemon pie! See I'm doing bad behavior again. I guess I didn't learn last night.
For dinner Mark brought home BBQ and I did nothing but sleep. When I went to bed I felt like I had a 100 lb. weight in my belly! I felt really sick. I have got to turn this around! I have to dish these emotions of things that are out of my control and get back to eating right. Boy is it going to be a rough few days or week but I have to do it!
It begins in the morning! Pray for me!
Let's start back at Sunday, weigh in day. I was up! I gained 3.6 lbs and knowing my body like I do there is some fluid retention involved. Eating out and processed foods contain lots of sodium and my body doesn't handle it.
I was still pretty upset on Sunday and still emotional over my conversation with Michael. I still feel the need to work on building my own support group. Not sure how to do this but I need to figure something out.
I started the day out back on track and made it through lunch and then fell off the wagon at dinner time. I hate the feelings and emotions that I'm going through.
Monday...
I saw the mail on the kitchen counter and found a letter from the hospital and a bill from a Dr. Apparently Aetna did not do what they told me they were going to and that was review the claims from last year's hospital stay and reprocess the claim. The hospital is looking for nearly $5,000. GAK. The Dr. bill is a balance for co-pays after filing with our old insurance company in 2013! When it rains it pours!
I spent the morning on the phone with Aetna and the Dr.'s office. I found out from the Dr.'s office that they could not refund the claim back because the insurance was still in effect! What? We terminated the Cobra coverage back in December 2013! Long story short Mark's ex-employer did not terminate him with the insurance company and have been paying for Cobra premiums!!!! OMG! Now the problem is getting this straightened out and getting these claims reversed before the 6 month time limit to file properly with Aetna! My head hurts. I have been on the phone a lot. My mood has been awful and food has been my emotional comforter. BAD!
I did meet a old cross-stitch friend for lunch on Monday and it was a great thing to see her and to get a way from the mayhem around here. I did not eat breakfast and while we ate at a Italian restaurant I ordered and grilled shrimp salad with fat-free italian dressing and only ate half of it. I was going to take the other half of the salad home but I left it there. I can tell you by suppertime I was hungry and cratered into a 3 piece KFC dinner with potato wedges and green beans. It made me sick. Too much grease! Oh my goodness, food really does play into how you feel. I'm back to no energy, my mood is down and I want to eat thinking that food will make me feel better. It won't! I know that! I need to get back to CLEAN EATING!
Went to bed sick!
Tuesday...(today)
I spent more time on the phone with the Dr. office before rushing to get ready to leave for my Remicade appointment. I was almost late. Too bad for me I didn't have time for breakfast so I grabbed a bottle of water and a banana and headed out the door.
When I get my Remicade they give me Zyrtec and Tylenol as premeds. Sometimes they give me the generic to Zyrtec and today it was the regular and that stuff knocks me out. It didn't take 30 minutes and my eyes rolled back into my head and I slept the whole time I was there.
I was starving when I got out so I ate my banana and drank my water before leaving the parking lot. It got me almost home before I pulled into Whataburger and got a Patty Melt, fries and a lemon pie! See I'm doing bad behavior again. I guess I didn't learn last night.
For dinner Mark brought home BBQ and I did nothing but sleep. When I went to bed I felt like I had a 100 lb. weight in my belly! I felt really sick. I have got to turn this around! I have to dish these emotions of things that are out of my control and get back to eating right. Boy is it going to be a rough few days or week but I have to do it!
It begins in the morning! Pray for me!
Monday, February 9, 2015
OK! I'm late!
I see y'all checking in. I haven't had a chance to write yesterday's post. I was going to sneak it in this morning but I was caught up with phone calls (Dr. and Insurance companies) then I had to get ready to meet a friend for lunch.
I need a nap.
I will do double duty tonight! Check back tomorrow ok?
Thanks!
I need a nap.
I will do double duty tonight! Check back tomorrow ok?
Thanks!
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