and flat ironed my frizzy, curly hair and we went out to eat. Visited with Tabitha, finished watch Extreme Makeover and now I'm sitting here writing because I wasn't going to get any further behind and I wanted to tell you about my first workout at the gym.
Good news...I don't have to go back to see the lung Dr. till March 3, 2015!!!!!! YEA!!!!!
Now to that first day...
I got up feeling very hesitant about going. After all the bathroom accidents I have had, the severe colitis, I questioned if I was ready. I thought getting ready for the gym would be a easy thing. Hey, I use to do Zumba, went to 24 Hour Fitness so I knew the routine of getting gym clothes on until it came time...
To Put On The Shoes!!!!!
Well, let me tell you! I got out my Asics running shoes, had my socks on and I stepped in and guess what happened? The whole back rolled in under my foot. I managed to twist and turn my foot to get it out, found a shoe horn tried again and I couldn't get my foot to budge a inch to get into that shoe. I was shocked! I'm only 20 lbs heavier than the last time I wore those shoes. I tried the other shoe and this foot is my bad ankle. It hurt. I had a few bad words to say. I threw them back into the closet and grabbed my Nike Musique shoes I used for Zumba. They didn't have the high ridge on the heel and they are more like a tennis shoe with support. I went and sat sideways on the bed and I pull and shoved and managed to get both shoes on. By this time I was running really late! I grabbed my towel, packed my cooler with a couple of water bottles and headed out the door crying from the pain coming from my feet, plus the bewilderment that my shoes did not fit! How could 20 lbs make such a difference? Once I got into the car, I called Mark and I got no answer. I tried him a few times on my way to the gyms as I was crying my eyes out and driving like a bat out of hell trying to get there on time. I ended up calling a old high school friend of mine Teresa and through tears told her what had happened and how I felt like a failure and how I wanted to just turn the car around and forget it and go home and just wait to die! She said the sweetest, most supportive things to me plus reminded me how much I had been waiting for this day. I knew she was right but I just felt so awful and low!!!! We hung up and I called Mark and this time I got him and I lost it again and he talked to me the rest of the way to the gym encouraging me not to turn around and go home but to go. He told me that we would get some shoes that would fit. I can't even put into words the pain that I felt as I drove towards the gym.
Once there, I dried my eyes, grabbed my towel, purse and a water bottle and walked into the gym. Patti, one of the trainers greeting me and told me to come into the office to talk to her and Justin while we waited for 2 more people to show up. Once I walked into the office, she asked me how my day was and I busted into tears. My feet were killing me, I still felt like a failure and I still questioned why I was even there. I wondered if there was any hope for me. I admitted this to them and they assured me that it would get better and I was not a failure and I would be able to get my healthy back.
I was angry for gaining all this weight back. I was angry for asking Mike to coach me and allowing him to control me to the point of messing me up so bad. I truly think that when he was missing around with my points, taking them away from me, not letting me eat my activity points, constantly telling me I was lying about what I was eating, etc. I truly believe he missed up my metabolism and the more the weight came back on from following exactly what he said I finally cratered, quit WW and headed on the journey I have been on to find out how to fix me. Don't get me wrong. I do take responsibility for some of the weight I put back on but not all of it!!! I could write a book about it all! I'm sure that is why it is so hard for me to even be friends with him! Let's move on...enough about him. He's not a part of this any more!!!! Thank You Lord!
Two other ladies showed up and Patti introduced us to each other and we began our workout. The first thing she had us do was to walk 2 laps around the gym. 24 laps equals a mile. We worked out, we danced, we worked out some more, we walked some more. We actually walked 6 laps around the gym which is 1/4 of a mile!!!! With everything else we did, I would say that was a excellent workout wouldn't you?
At the end of our workout I knew that I couldn't not drive home with the shoes on. I asked them if they would help me get the shoes off. They couldn't believe how tight the shoes were and they had to tug them off my feet! I drove home in my socks!
Once home I was so stiff and sore I barely could get out of my car and make it into the house to get undressed and to rest. Luckily I didn't have anywhere else to go. As the day wore on, I just kept getting more stiff and sore. It was horrible! I have to admit it was good too! It felt good to feel my body respond to activity after spending the last 3 years sitting and doing nothing!!!!! By the evening I could hardly get myself up and it hurt to take a drink of water or Diet Coke! But I was going back!
Because of the shoe situation, I cancelled the classes that I reserved for Thursday and Friday. I left the first Nutrition class for Saturday alone. I knew that I could make it. I knew I needed Mark's help to get me some new shoes! I have the hardest time reaching my feet!
Tomorrow I will tell you about the class!!! It was AMAZING!!!!!!
Once there, I dried my eyes, grabbed my towel, purse and a water bottle and walked into the gym. Patti, one of the trainers greeting me and told me to come into the office to talk to her and Justin while we waited for 2 more people to show up. Once I walked into the office, she asked me how my day was and I busted into tears. My feet were killing me, I still felt like a failure and I still questioned why I was even there. I wondered if there was any hope for me. I admitted this to them and they assured me that it would get better and I was not a failure and I would be able to get my healthy back.
I was angry for gaining all this weight back. I was angry for asking Mike to coach me and allowing him to control me to the point of messing me up so bad. I truly think that when he was missing around with my points, taking them away from me, not letting me eat my activity points, constantly telling me I was lying about what I was eating, etc. I truly believe he missed up my metabolism and the more the weight came back on from following exactly what he said I finally cratered, quit WW and headed on the journey I have been on to find out how to fix me. Don't get me wrong. I do take responsibility for some of the weight I put back on but not all of it!!! I could write a book about it all! I'm sure that is why it is so hard for me to even be friends with him! Let's move on...enough about him. He's not a part of this any more!!!! Thank You Lord!
Two other ladies showed up and Patti introduced us to each other and we began our workout. The first thing she had us do was to walk 2 laps around the gym. 24 laps equals a mile. We worked out, we danced, we worked out some more, we walked some more. We actually walked 6 laps around the gym which is 1/4 of a mile!!!! With everything else we did, I would say that was a excellent workout wouldn't you?
At the end of our workout I knew that I couldn't not drive home with the shoes on. I asked them if they would help me get the shoes off. They couldn't believe how tight the shoes were and they had to tug them off my feet! I drove home in my socks!
Once home I was so stiff and sore I barely could get out of my car and make it into the house to get undressed and to rest. Luckily I didn't have anywhere else to go. As the day wore on, I just kept getting more stiff and sore. It was horrible! I have to admit it was good too! It felt good to feel my body respond to activity after spending the last 3 years sitting and doing nothing!!!!! By the evening I could hardly get myself up and it hurt to take a drink of water or Diet Coke! But I was going back!
Because of the shoe situation, I cancelled the classes that I reserved for Thursday and Friday. I left the first Nutrition class for Saturday alone. I knew that I could make it. I knew I needed Mark's help to get me some new shoes! I have the hardest time reaching my feet!
Tomorrow I will tell you about the class!!! It was AMAZING!!!!!!
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