I know it has been a few days since I posted. I had a great day yesterday. I actually got some things done. I felt good and Karen surprised me with a visit. We went and split a lunch at Cheddar's and had a good time. Mark cooked a delicious Salmon dinner with baked sweet potato and some early green peas. I also had some 72% cacao. Love that stuff. You have to eat it slowly or it is very bitter. I only had a little flutter in my heart yesterday. I really think the Ezekiel Bread is the culprit and now I'm scared to eat a whole grain bread!
Today I woke up feeling a little tired and I weighed and I shouldn't have. Another week of no weight loss. It sent me down the tubes. I've fought tears all day long. I haven't wanted to eat but I've made myself. I'd like to get into bed and pull the covers over my head and cry like a baby. WHAT IS WRONG WITH ME????????
As of 5 p.m. today I've downed 6 - 16.9 ounces of bottled water and I will get 2 more down to make it a gallon. And yes I got on the scale this afternoon and yes it was up more and yes I just want to die!!!!! I DO NOT WANT TO WEIGH 436.6 LBS!!!!!
OH GOD HELP ME!!!!!!
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